CONVERSATIONS WITH GOD 3

 "Men are scum!" I hissed.

"Not all men" Jay corrected, as He raised his brows as a matter-of-factly.

I sipped in some of the  tea Jay made for me. I sighed as the warmsensation transcended my throat and filled my insides.

"Told you chamomile would do the trick" he winked.

"Yea, its nice." I held the mug beneath my nostrils and inhaled some of the steam,closing my eyes.

"You're thinking about him, aren't you?" Jay inquired, his back to me while he stirred something on the stove. "Moses doesn't love you. He never did." 

Really how does this guy do it?

A sense of panic erupted in my chest and I quickly placed the mug back on the table. Who did this guy think he was anyway? If he thought making accurate guesses could fool me then he was horribly mistaken.

"Mr Jay,  I would appreciate it if you'd stop interfering in my private life." I quickly stood up, my arms folded across my chest, the walls in my heart rising with each word I spoke.

"Private?" Jay chuckled, an eye brow raised. "Dear Child, Nothing about you is hidden from me." 

Child? Last time I rembered I was 28.

Nkechi I'm sorry you had to hear this, this way but you have too much baggage. I can't deal. And I definitely do not see a future of us. I'm sure that somewhere out there is a guy who will love the way you deserve. You are a good person NK but you're just not it for me.

"Stop it!" in a mere whisper i shivered and shook my head, attempting weakly to stop the horrible memory that was resurrecting strongly.

"Nkechi, you are bruised and you ache in places in your heart where only I can heal. Let me in. Give me a chance."

"Like I did Moses, as well as  every other man that I gave a chance? Let's face it Mr 'Jay its not worth it!"

Jay merely stared, his gaze mirroring sadness. 

"Liars!" "All of them! Making promises they had no intentions of keeping all to get what they wanted." A tear fell. I sniffed.

"Anyways, I'm way past that now" I quickly wipped my cheeks.

"Are you?" Jay finally spoke, his eyes boring into my soul.

"What are you anyways? A therapist? Some shrink? Stephanie finally hired you right?"

"Oh Steph!" His eyes lit, "Yeah, she has told me a lot about you actually, we talk everyday."

"Birds of the same feather" I muttered underneath my breath. Steph was one of those Jesus fanatics..But not in a weird way though, she was really warm and sweet. Maybe she was dating this Jay guy.

"What I and Steph share is deeper and more special than that, NK." Jay responded as though reading her thoughts.

"It's a relationship that has its roots as old as 2000 years" he massaged the core of his palms, looking into the distance.

"2000 years?" My brows knot in confusion.

Wait a minute....

Could it be?

"Are you..? You are.." I stuttered

Jay smiled,"I am."

TO BE CONTINUED.

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